Wednesday, July 25, 2007

anthony works in a grocery store...

If that's movin' up, then mama I'm movin' out.

I called yesterday about an apt. and rode by to look at it and fill out an application for it. I don't know why this seems like such a big deal to me. I mean, I knew it was coming and it's not like I'm moving across the country with $4 in my pocket...although sometimes I think that would be easier for some reason. I think I tend to find comfort in the extreme. I'm just waiting now to go back and actually see inside it. It has a working fireplace and a big porch and is on a side street in the "city." I think I like it. I think I'm really, really excited...and really, really scared for some stupid reason. I think some of that is the fact that it doesn't quite gel with my timeline that I had planned and now I have to figure an all new one and blah blah blah...Obsessive much? No, not me.

This is the first time I've ever done something like this on my own. Usually, although I'm the one doing things and getting things and setting things up, someone's there to handle the tiny details and hold my hand and tell me that I'm gonna be ok and to quit freaking out. Jesus, it's 10 miles from where I live now if that. It's not like it's a radical change or anything. But, at the same time it is. On a different level. On a more internal level. It's more than just an apartment and moving. This is the beginning. A beginning of something that I actually can't see how it's going to turn out. I know I'll have more money in my pocket so maybe my dinners will improve. I know that I'll be about a mile from downtown so I can walk places instead of sitting around wishing there was something to do. I know that I'll be able to see people from where I'll be sitting. I know I haven't even seen the inside of it yet and don't know if I'll like it or not or if the people upstairs walk like they have cinderblocks for feet, but I'm already making plans for the fireplace and football and chili and porch sits and tailgates on Autumn Saturdays. Yeah, I think this is going to be good....

4 comments:

modelbehavior said...

I'm obsessed with that Billy Joel song BTW -

TK said...

Time to push the baby bird outta the nest.

Sounds like an awesome place...

A beginning of something that I actually can't see how it's going to turn out.

This is a good thing. Just repeat that in your head.

Ha Ha Sound said...

Go for it, dude. Life is about adventure. Move to a great new apartment. Explore. Enjoy. It sounds like you're already excited about it, anyway.

Jen said...

I think it's exciting as well - good for you! A fresh start, a new beginning, all that stuff. You make the chili, I'll bring the cornbread! Ha!
Oh, and I finally put a link on my site to your site, hope you don't mind?

jen